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Ohkay so if you didn’t know already I’m a girl, 17 years old and I live in England. Thing is.. when ever I think about my life I can only think of negative things.. so like here I’ll give you a bit of info about my life:
My parents never married and my dad had left before I was born. So my mum was a single parent and I think it was quite tough on her… she had health problems from what I was told.
So anyway, I was really close with my mother and grandparents.
But when I was nearly 6, my mum died and a couple of months previously my grandfather died too… It was a really terrible year…
My gran had to sell her farmhouse and moved into my mums house to look after me…
After a couple of years she started fostering and we are still doing that to this day…
Some of the foster children used to bully me though and because it was at home I couldn’t get away from it… unless I was at school. I was a generally shy person so nowhere really felt comfortable.
When I was 11-ish I was diagnosed with tinnitus (ringing in the ears). and I felt that really hard to deal with. I was really scared and I sometimes had panic attacks about it.
My grandmother and myself have been to countless funerals of people that we knew and it’s no fun really… Like, my great grandmother (my gran’s mother), when she passed away, because I’d grown up with her and we would always visit her… it was quite difficult to come to terms with…
And now… in the past two years.. I’ve been diagnosed with Keratoconus (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Keratoconus) Which means I have bad eyesight which only rigid contact lenses can make better… but my left eye is almost too bad for contacts to correct… which means I might not be able to drive and it means I’ll have difficulty to read/write anything really. :c
Also, I’ve always had problems with my feet. But just recently… I went to the docs about it because my right foot kept swelling and was painful if I tried to run or if I walked for a long time… They x-rayed my foot and it seems I have a misaligned bone which is causing the swelling.. I was probably born with this, but only now is it causing me problems… and the fact that I can’t do any form of running.. it means I can’t really exercise…
Oh and I now (since January 2009) have really bad anxiety during exams or lectures… and that really mucked up my GCSE and AS level grades… although now I’m transfering college and doing a new course.. so hopefully I can get over it… [coursework based course thank goodness]
[AHH SORRY IT'S SO LONG. I've just had so much crud that's all.]

But you know like… I feel really, really, depressed about it all. Can anyone relate to any of this? I’m kinda almost at breaking point with this and sersiouly… I don’t want to feel like this anymore. I want to turn this frown upside down.

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Thanks everyone for the answers so far ^_^
Maybe I should just try to move on then… although I’m scared about the future… what with my health problems and things. But I’ll try~

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Right, you do indeed have a lot of negative things in your l;ife, and it;s best to express your feeling about them and get it out of your system… BUT, you musn’t wallow in it. You are in a pretty negative situation, when you think about it. Living with an aged Grandparent, and trailing round to funeral after funeral is no way at all for a girl of your age to live. You have got to get a new life. All your health problems are making things difficult for you, I know, but there are lots of people who have such problems, and then learn to live their lives around them. I think it must be extremely hard for you to imagine a happier life at the moment, but you can. you DEFINATELTY can.. at 17, you are just embarking on adulthood, and you need to take stock now, and get a positive mindset together.. you are articulate, experienced, and mature for 17, life has made sure of that, so now, use these experiences for good. Lots of girls of your age are children compared to you.. you have the opportunity now to turn your life completely around.. On a practical level, your health problems should entitle you to help and support along the way, finding accomodation etc. Get in touch with your Local council, and ask to speak to welfare rights. They will be able to help you. Depression can be a trap that is difficult to get out of, but you are understandly depressed about a frankly depressing situation! Change the situation, and you will feel better.